i used to blindly say "time flies", as if it applied to any circumstances, or whenever I observed it slipping away from my emptiness.
until i realized it does not.
the speed depends on how i spent my time.
it ran fast if i stay in my routine and comfort zone. a 996 work-home-work life, or an isolated 'leave me alone' life, or a life full of avoidance and resistance. being disciplined is not always a good thing to me because it not only shuts doors to millions of opportunities, but also fosters the illusion "time flies".
how can time be slow when each second replays with the same pattern?
click -
copy
click -
paste
control - c
control - v
technology made copy paste so easy, and let me stay in my routine and feel isolated. eventually i blame time went by too fast, and why i haven't done anything meaningful.
what's interesting is when things begin to slow down, and i'm no longer caught in a whirlwind of thoughts. it's during those moments when i simply sit still, gazing at whatever lies in front of me—just observing.
just
look at it
observe.
2s, 5s, 10s ... ...
time counts in seconds.
it is hard to sit still and distractions can easily pull me away after just 5 seconds. but boy how real it feels and how slow time became at that moment - my mind is empty, but my heart is full.
time also feels slow when i'm traveling. everything is new and strange to me. every second is different and unpredictable that i'm both excited and timid to explore.
1s, 2s, 3s ... ...
time slows because every second counts, and i am fully here.
i started to break my routines and challenge myself to do the opposite on whatever i 'wanted' to do. it is so much easier to say than put into action, and i struggle a lot on taking the first step. but hey, i am doing it. slowly. and already, reaping the rewards and finding joy in the process.
why not spend the next day to do exactly the opposite of your routine and see how it works out?
now i stopped saying "time flies" realizing that time simply flows as it does. reality is reality and there is no fast or slow.
peace.
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