what does life feel like?
it's been a while since i found myself caught up in the whirlwind of thoughts, both significant and trivial. my days could be so organized and predictable like a robot. i used to joke with my coworkers at tesla that i wished i could be a robot. little did i realize that, at times, i genuinely felt like a robot myself. so, i began to wonder: what does life feel like? how does one truly experience it?
don't give me wrong, i'm not trying to make it philosophical, but truly curious about the feeling of life.
one rainy evening, i decided to break free from my usual routine of staying late at work and heading straight home for dinner and netflix. instead, i returned two hours earlier while it was still bright outside. as i showered and changed into my comfy pajamas, i was standing in front of the mirror and putting creams to my arms, i suddenly felt the life.
i felt light and fresh. my eyes were clearer, and a calm and peaceful feeling settled in my heart. in that moment, my mind flashed back to a childhood memory—a rainy day when my mom picked me up from a kindergarten dance class. we rode back home on her bike, sharing a single raincoat as the downpour soaked us through. when we got back home, she asked me to take a hot shower and she went straight to the kitchen to cook the porridge. it is one of the simplest foods to make, but has been my favorite mommy dish since then. i always make fun of her the best food she ever cooked was the millet porridge, even though i do mean it. this memory became so vivid in my mind when i was staring at the mirror, and i felt, that was life.
so what does life feel like?
it feels like a warm blanket on a cold winter night, a ray of sunshine on a cloudy day, a fresh-baked apple pie in the oven. it shines brightest during those little moments when i least expect it.
i started to watch the documentary planet earth, and found life is magical. animals and plants are smart creatures living with big pearls of wisdom that humans sometimes lose. if you are also wondering how it feels to live, stop, and observe.
most often, the feel of life reveals itself in unexpected places and moments. tell me how you feel.
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