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Writer's pictureSummer Vvvera

i lost internet. oh i feel good

i experienced the longest period of losing internet over the weekend since i moved to austin. about 12 hours from 10pm on saturday until sunday morning, when i saw a social media notification pop up on my screen, i knew i was back to normal.


this time, i recorded and paid attention to how i felt and what i did since it was much longer than i expected. i thought it was interesting to see how emotional a creature i am.


sat. 10pm

watching mrbeast youtube videos and suddenly stopped loading

refresh

blank

"wtf"

checking my phone and ipad—none of the wi-fi was working

"ok, i lost internet again"

"it should be back soon. last time it was about 30 minutes"

10:10pm

spinning on my chair, scrolling my phone and checking instagram, messages

10:25pm

refresh youtube

blank

stare at the screen

10:26pm

refresh

refresh

refresh

check clock

10:28pm

"hmm"

log in astound web check for internet outage

"your area is impacted by an internet outage and we currently don't have estimated time when it will be back. our technicians are working hard on it (i forgot the exact words)"

10:32pm

refresh

refresh

refresh

check clock

"ok. no estimated time. good to know."

stare at the blank screen

pick up my phone again

10:34pm

mindlessly scrolling my phone checking social medias

"gosh, when can i get internet back, it's taking so long"

10:35pm

check clock

refresh

refresh

log in astound web check for internet outage again

"your area is impacted by an internet outage ... ... "

10:37pm

open a bag of chips

stare at the screen

mindlessly scrolling my phone checking social medias again

and eating chips

10:39pm

moving to my couch with my laptop

check clock

refresh

refresh

use my phone to google what happened and if anyone else are experiencing the same

unfortunately yes. a surge in the number of people reported losing internet

10:58pm

refresh

refresh

refresh

frustrated. annoyed. anxious.

i lost interests scrolling social media on my phone

"ok. time to go to bed"

11:10pm

check clock

"wow surprise. i've never gone to bed that early on a weekend"

put all electronics asides and clean tables

11:50pm

shower, brush teeth

look in the mirror

"hmm, feels kind of good going to bed early and having a quiet night without internet"

12:08pm

check clock

lights off

last time check the wifi on my phone

no

shut off

12:10pm

lay down and close eyes

"hmm, i feel good tonight"

~12:20pm

i fall asleep


sun. 6:11am

wake up and look outside the window

the sky is just about to get bright

check clock

"did i have any dreams last night?"

"i don't remember"

6:14am

"oh i feel good waking up early"

grab my phone and check the wifi

no

"well, it's ok"

i'm happy i wake up early and feel refreshed, which has been my goal for months without being able to achieve it

6:15am

rewarded myself 5 more min laziness before getting up

make my bed

6:36am

brew a cup of peach green tea, set aside

start cleaning kitchen and bathroom

7:28am

sit at my desk looking outside

sip the tea and stare at the tree outside my window

birds flying around

the sound of water flowing from the pool

it wasn't quiet, but rather a morning full of natural sounds

it is beautiful

and i feel good

7:xx am

start reading einstein biography by walter isaacson

10:56am

check my phone and one social media notification appears on the screen

check wifi

connected

i didn't feel any joy or excitement, but rather a peaceful mind and thought

"ok, i got internet back"


i feel the last 12 hours without internet were so rich, peaceful and slow.


 

sun. 8:30pm

facetime with parents

dad: you look great today

me: yeah, i feel pretty good today


smile :)





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Austin Cummings
Austin Cummings
May 26

great post

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Summer Vvvera
Summer Vvvera
May 27
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thank you austin :)

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